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Babies Come From Heaven
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Boys Will Be Boys
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Every Batman has to start somewhere

I walked into the den to find this little scene yesterday - NOT that there is anything abnormal about Nick playing on the computer. We even caught him downstairs in this same position one night well after eleven - when we thought he was asleep in bed. Little sneak! He is way too literate in the subject for my taste already. (Maybe it's a good thing, who knows.) His whole outfit totally cracked me up though. He was watching Lego Batman 'movies' over and over, apparently the cape was necessary for this exercise. Right after breakfast the first thing he asks invariably is "so, it's okay I go hop on da 'puter?". I'm a little a-scared.
(Please note that one of the garlands only has half of the lights working. . . I got a good week out of them before they burned out though.)
(Please do not note the mess on the desk. Thank you.)
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Happy Halloweeeeen!!
(Max as a Dementor, Grey as Zorro, Me as Elphaba the Wicked Witch of the West, and Nick as Batman. . . ready to hit the streets and get some candy! Oh yeah, and Tyler as the cameraman and door-answer-er.)Oooooo! (That's a scary ghost sound by the way.) Nick has been drawing little blobish circles and saying 'Oooooo' for weeks now. 'Dat's a scary ghos, Mom'. All the little blobs look pretty much the same to me, but he assures me they're all very different ghosts. SO, our whole family has been pretty preoccupied with Halloween for some time now and now that it's officially over I'm not sure I want to let it go. The spooky decor is definitely staying up a few more days at least.
Th boys' school doesn't let the kids wear costumes to school on Halloween which I thought was very sad. I have great memories of the Halloween Parade at my elementary school. Teachers and students dressed up, parents came and the entire school tromped through the halls and through every classroom in the school. I'm sure it was chaos for the faculty and maybe even a dreaded event, but seriously, it was great fun for the kids. Part of the fun of being in costume is seeing (and being seen by) all your friends. In lieu of any costumed festivities at school I told the boys we would have a Halloween Costume Party for them at the house. Their guest lists weren't too bad separate, but they were a little spooky put together! We had twenty-three kids (and Grey's amazing kindergarten teacher, his wife and their son even stopped by - the kids went wild. He's quite a celebrity to them). When all was said and done (seventy-five 'witch-finger' cookies, twenty-three spider cupcakes, and twenty-three treat bags later) it was a very crazy, fun, chaos-filled hour-and-a-half! I'm definitelty glad we did it though and think it might have to become a tradition for us.
Witch Finger Cookies
I didn't have a chance to snap any pictures until the very end of the party. By that time, of course, most of the little goblins had shed multiple pieces of their costumes. Too bad I didn't group them together for a shot in the beginning - they were so adorable!







Thursday, October 23, 2008
Anybody Still There?
So, I had a fit of 'time to get every project you've been thinking about doing for the last year done'. SO, after making some serious headway in the realms of mounting things on the wall, random organizing (picture me, a bajillion greeting cards, and a cute little file box - it's sickening and wonderful all at the same time, I know.), and, of course, more unpacking. I've had enough. For awhile. (I'm really quite productive when I'm not blogging, or reading what everyone else is blogging. Who knew.) Then an overly happy announcer-type appeared out of nowhere, shoved a microphone in my face and said "Well, Wendy, now that you've finally folded all that laundry and painted another wall shelf, what are you going to do?" Like any good American wanting to help spur the economy I cried, "I'm going to Disneyland!" And so it came to pass. We've always tried to do Disneyland in the off-times before but I had to see what all the "It's Halloweeeen Time" fuss was about, so off we went - along with at least half of the state (and some Az folks too) during Fall Break. Somehow we fit two eleven-hour days at Disneyland, a day at the San Diego Zoo, and a day at the beach in. I have to admit, the parts of Disneyland and CA Adventure that were decorated were pretty cool. Seeing the 'new and improved' Haunted Mansion alone was worth the trip. I'd like the Disney Staff to come and decorate our house for Halloween now, please.
The boys throwing out . . . who knows what signs.
Noodle and Tyler


Grey, on the other hand, was being typical Grey. He's 'not trying to get wet' in this picture in fact. Notice, please, that his hair is dripping. And, yes, his clothes couldn't possibly soak up any more water than they already had at the point I took this picture.
Kara and Me. I know, I look ridiculous. My hair gets all psuedo-curly in humidity, and then the jewelry. . . For all you know I'm wearing a big frilly white skirt. Cha, cha, cha!
Our two families. . .Ready to go 'home' as the sun sets. Thanks for you hospitality dear friends!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
How Did This Happen?
I feel like I've been able to enjoy Nick's crazy antics a little more than Max and Grey's because I don't have a new baby to steal some of the attention. He's such a character - so sweet, goofy, and mischievous! Even though when I ask him if he's 'my boy' he always says 'NO, I Daddy boy. You Max and Grey boy'. Apart from from the obvious mix-up of me being the older boys' boy, rather than them being mine . . . he's really quite precise in how he feels the family is split up. But I know - deep down inside - he's my boy too!
Happy Birthday Little Man!



Thursday, September 4, 2008
The Duke of Escalante Oct. 29, 1995 - Sept. 4, 2008

"We need another and a wiser and perhaps a more mystical concept of animals. Remote from universal nature, and living by complicated artifice, man in civilization surveys the creature through the glass of his own knowledge and sees thereby a feather magnified and the whole image in distortion. We patronize them (animals) for their incompleteness, for their tragic fate of having taken form so far below ourselves. Therein we err, and greatly err. For the animal shall not be measured by man. In a world older and more complete than ours they move finished and complete, gifted with extensions of the senses we have lost or never attained, living by voices we shall never hear. The animals are not brethren, they are not underlings; they are other nations, caught with ourselves in the net of life and time, fellow prisoners of the splendor and travail of the earth." - Henry Beston
My heart is broken. My friend, my old running and riding partner, my protector, my confidant, my first 'baby' - is gone. We have known it was coming for years, but as much as that makes it seem like it should be easier to say goodbye, it doesn't make it so. Knowing he was failing horribly doesn't make it easier. Feeling he is in a better place now doesn't make it hurt less.
We got Duke the summer that we got married as a hyper one-and-a-half-year-old from some friends that didn't have the time to put into training him. That was eleven and a half years ago. We already had an older Golden Retriever, Gert, that surprisingly took him under her wing. Between her training and Tyler's I hardly had to do anything. Duke came to work with me when I used to guide horseback tours and ran back and forth in front of the horses as we went - the same way he did when I took him running. It was like he couldn't help but run on ahead to see what was there, but he kept coming back to make sure I was still there. He must have covered at least twice as much ground with all his doubling back. If ever there was a dog whose physical makeup resembled 'Tigger', it was Duke. His 'bottoms were made out of springs'. He could jump vertically past my shoulders - from a stand-still, and would just because he was happy to see us.
Duke was all about being a retriever - if he didn't have a toy to be thrown he would find one - sticks (of course) and old water bottles were his favorite 'found' treasures. He would fetch as long as he could find someone to throw. If there was water involved there was no dog happier. He would leap with reckless abandon off of docks, the boat deck, rock walls, you name it. If you threw his toy - he would fly first, and then swim to bring it back.
Thunderstorms and fireworks, however, melted the poor thing into a quivering mess. Everyone knows animals act differently before a storm and if you know what signs to look for you can predict the weather. Duke was far more accurate than the weatherman, and an open book with his signs. Until the last year or so he never slept in our room, and a cold wet nose pressed into my side or nuzzling my palm in the middle of the night could only mean one thing. If a storm came when we weren't home Duke would burrow into the corner of our closet until either we came home, or the storm passed. His 'Tigger'-like hind end came in handy for him if he was outside when thunder started to roll - no fence could hold him. He ran, and ran, and ran - apparently he was trying to outrun the storm because he would turn up miles and miles away from home and never in the same area twice.
When I starting working at the ranch Duke and our new(er) Golden came to work with me most every day. While Sadie was still learning to control herself and would endlessly disappear after elk herds, sage hens or anything else we came across on the trail, Duke would simply perk up his ears, take a couple of deer-like bounds towards the wildlife in question and come dutifully back to me. The only occasion I can think of that he didn't come back the first time I called, I'm convinced he thought he was protecting me. Maybe he was. I used to ride a lot by myself - I felt safe enough being on horseback and having the dogs there as well. It was late Spring and the elk herds had temporarily scattered a bit for the pregnant cows to have their babies. We startled one just off the trail. Her baby must have just been born because it wasn't standing yet. The new 'mama' charged us. Sadie, miraculously, came running to me but Duke ran straight at the elk barking like crazy. The elk kept lifting up onto her hind legs and then crashing down low with her fronts out straight, almost like she was doing a very exaggerated bow - but with a completely different meaning. Duke was doing the same thing. They were facing each other and turning in large crazy circles with the point between them as the axis, Duke barking and snarling the whole time. I'd seen him act that way before when he was playing with us, with other dogs (even with some coyote pups), but this was different - it was more serious. His tail wasn't wagging, his tongue wasn't lolling playfully out of his mouth. Instead his lips were pulled back over teeth in a snarl. My sweet boy looked absolutely ferocious. I was riding a young horse that wanted out of the situation and I had a hard time just keeping him from bolting as I yelled for Duke to come. About one-hundred yards up the trail I got my horse to stop. When we got to that point it was as if Duke decided we were far away enough to be safe and came bounding after us. Instead of his usual spot out in front, however, he tailed us until the cow elk finally turned around and went back to her baby. Then he moved to the front clearly high from his encounter. I had always felt safe hiking, running, and riding with Duke. I felt like he would protect me, although I imagined a human attacker rather than another animal. After that incident I knew I had been right. We protected him from his fears and he was ready to protect us.

We told ourselves once he couldn't get around well it would 'be time'. That stage came and went. He still seemed happy when he was with us and rarely let any chance to follow us around outside pass him by, even though he was moving in an increasingly slow shuffle. The arthritis in his front elbows had fused his joints stiff and straight. We tried every medication the vets offered. The nerves in his back had begun dying a few years ago and slowly his back legs had lost feeling, which is why he shuffled. He moved his front legs and the back legs would follow. Stairs became impossible for him to maneuver over the last two months, we carried him up and down. Once he couldn't stand up by himself we would pick him up and steady him and then he would be okay. And then suddenly he wasn't. He couldn't stay standing unless we held onto him for awhile and positioned his legs. Still, sometimes even then he would fall right back down. He could barely hear anymore, his eyes had started to cloud over and we couldn't keep weight on him. The look in his eyes said everything, and we knew we couldn't put him through it any more.

As Tyler dug Duke's grave and I tried to do something - anything to keep myself from thinking and crying more, I found poor tender-hearted Grey standing on the back bumper of the Suburban. He was peering through the open window at Duke wrapped up in a blanket and had the saddest expression I've ever seen on his face. I put my arm around him and told him it's okay to cry when you feel sad. Glad for a tender-hearted husband, I pointed out that 'Daddy' had cried too. He got down and hugged me and I could tell then that he had already been crying. I still remember the way I felt as a child the first time I lost a pet. I know it's a part of life. I know the level of joy can only reach as deep as the level of our sorrow. I know each loss helps us grow and cherish what we have. I know these things, and I'm still sad. I am sad to lose my friend and sad to watch my boys dealing with losing their friend too. Duke has always been an immediate part of their world, and now the world has changed, and I can't kiss it to make it better. More than sending the boys off to a new year of school, I feel like we all grew older today.
Duke, you are greatly loved and missed.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Too tired - continued
Feeling slightly remiss about all the blogging I've been thinking about but not doing. If only I could dictate straight to the blog while I'm musing. . . too bad.
STILL, I have no time to cyber-muse. So I'll be brief.
Three of my favorite moments from my sweet little guys this week:
1. Max - has decided he loves to sleep with his windows open so Foghorn (the rooster) can wake him up. . .funny how sleepy he still seems when I wake him up after the sun has been up for awhile. Can't believe how big he is now.
2.Grey-bug- told me what he wants to be when he grows up. Although he said 'an astronaut' first, he quickly changed his mind - before I could even fill in the blank on his teacher's questionnaire- to (drum roll, please. . .) a Ninja. 'Definitely a Ninja'. Does that come with dental?
3. Nicky- said 'bwess you' when I sneezed. How sweet is that? AND Nick came up to work with me for a little bit while 'the boys', as he calls them - he doesn't seem to get that he's part of that group- were in school. He helped me spray the horses down and then let them out for the night. Good one-on-one time.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
The Capture



He kept saying 'Ah see yo weg, no, Ah see mah weg!' And then the glorious moment evidently about the time of this pic, "Ah see mah ton!"

A final Nick's eye-view.

And, no. I didn't catch the blasted rooster. But Tyler did...the next day.
Monday, July 28, 2008
Five Minutes Later
Literally five minutes after I posted the entry right before this one I got breakfast for the boys. They wanted to eat on the deck which wasn't an issue except of course that Grey was still Gollum (his bowl of Crispix had taken my place as his 'precious'), ie: still in nothing but underwear. I tried (and failed) to convince him to at least put some shorts on. I tried to scare him out of it by reminding him the neighbors would be able to see him. If Max EVER had the notion to run outside in his skivies he would definitely have been held off by that argument - not Grey. "They can only see my shoulders, Mom." Apparently the neighbors can't see through the railing on the deck. I gave in. What's the use of being a kid if you can't run around in your underwear every once in awhile anyway?
I looked out the kitchen window a few minutes later to see Grey in this pose.
And, yes, he was saying "ah-oom, ah-oom".
If it's not Batman. . .
This morning:
Stripping the beds to throw the bedding in the wash. Grey curled up in his anywhere chair - in his underwear.
W- Hey, buddy, why don't you get dressed and I'll get you some breakfast.
G- Then I can't be Gollum.
W- Oh. Yeah. Good Point. Ok then, can you take your stuff to the laundry chute?
G- Yes. . . my precious.
Friday, May 16, 2008
Boys will be. . .
A couple of days ago the boys and I went to the ranch for a photoshoot with my friend, Kiera. She has graciously let me post me some of the great pictures she snapped of my three wonderful monsters. She has totally captured their enormous personalities! Hope you love these shots as much as I do! (I can't wait to see the rest Kiera!) P.S. the new header is one of her shots as well - "Look, an ant hill! Smash it! Kill the ants! Aaaaah!" (boys making noises of screaming ants)







Thursday, April 24, 2008
Spring Break!
Spring Break came at the perfect time this year - Tyler and I were both about at the end of our ropes managing the building of the new house, still fighting the city about the old house, and handling life in general! If the only thing we did was NOT have to get the kids up for school that would have been enough to get through. We decided we really wanted to get AWAY for a few days though so we spent the second half of the week in St. George. It was just far enough away to relax a little bit (alas, the cell phones still worked. . .). The weather was perfect, we visited our good friends the Kinyons there, and had good friends from home down as well. The boys played in the pool for two days straight.


On the third day we went to our favorite place for breakfast (& lunch): Bear Paw Cafe. The decor is awful but the food is SO good the cheesy southwestern indian art prints are forgivable! While we waited to get in we played in the park across the street. The boys thought this bench with the statue of Brigham Young was even better than the scary Ronald McDonald on the bench in our local McDonalds. (Grey thought it was supposed to be Santa in the 'off-season', but Max quickly corrected him with 'It's Abraham Lincoln, Grey!')I love the look on Nick's face.
Later we went to the park that has the little water play area in 'downtown' St. George. We were totally unprepared - no swimsuits, no towels . . . no swim diapers. Max was completely dismayed by this. Nick, on the other hand, ran right past the "no running - swim diapers required" sign with his regular diaper peeking conspiculously out of his shorts and onto the slippery surface where little bursts of water shoot up. His face was complete glee until he slipped (right in back of the "slippery surface - water shoes recommended" sign) flat on his back. He cried until he saw the manmade sandstone waterfall and river area. Back to bliss. The two older boys were super whiny about wanting to be in the pool instead until they saw how much fun Nick was having. Check out the evil eye Max is giving me in this first photo!


It was hard to come back, but we were glad to see the house still standing when we did.





